December 2010
You're right :)
Hi, I'm Layla, I'm looking for a good friend so I...
Breathe in, breathe in, breathe in, breathe in...
I’ve gotten good at hiding, when I feel like hiding. My mouth is great at running, when I feel like running. Now I’m biting the hairs on my arm like I do when I don’t know where I am or what I should do. I’ve been blessed with these eyes that come with innocent questions like where I’m from. Holding expectations to give obvious answers and tell no lies. But i swear...
This year is the first year I really don’t care about it ending or another one starting. Years are artificial. It’s just one day in the year everyone can forgive themselves and make “a new start”. I don’t care, I really don’t. And it amazes me, because I used to love new years eve. I guess I already made a new start, and don’t need another one.
But...
I wrote something about you last night. You will never know.
I’m so fucking heated yet I can see my breath searching for patience I got none left the streets so cold still I’m boiling red everything’s exploding inside of my head my lungs are collapsing grasping for air looking for help but there’s no one there don’t know if I can make it this time I’m alone I’m enraged I’m just trying to survive...
HAVE HEART Eagle Gray Crew Neck Sweatshirt →
I want that sweater! Probably going to buy it as a christmas present for myself :)
PHOTOGRAPHY = THERAPY
My new motto of the day/year/life/…
I’ve got some time to search for myself now.
And I studied all day, but still feel like I’ve done nothing.
I’m barely feeling anything. Maybe I just don’t understand it. Maybe my body will act in relay. I’m just don’t seem to realize the fact that I’m alone now.
I can’t sleep at night because I’m expecting the feeling to catch me when I’m the most lonely
This Is A Real Thing That Is Real of the Day: CIA...
thedailywhat:
From CBS News:
Officially, the panel is called the WikiLeaks Task Force. But at CIA headquarters, it’s mainly known by its all-too-apt acronym: W.T.F.
You could make this stuff up, but no one would believe you.
[cbs.]
I could really use some rationality right now. ‘Cause I’m constantly worrying I didn’t made the right choice.
Could someone tell me again why I did this? I know there was a good reason.
Anyway, I need to take some photos.
Thanks, I needed someone :)
See you in 5 min.
Ja, gij ja.
Stay out of my dreams.
I could quote that song of The Cure again
But man, how I love fridays.
Not that there’s some exciting weekend waiting for me. I’ll probably be studying saturday, sunday and monday.
Meh, I miss doing things with friends :) I can’t wait until it’s summer.
“There’s no truth like the lie I live
I’m a sinking ship drowning by a burning...”
– American Nightmare (via vomitsoup)
Most difficult game ever. →
I’m becoming a sociologist. I’m so happy I took this step, and I’m so much more motivated!
I can do this, I can do this, I can do this.
This is something I did for myself.
Now, it’s time for a tattoo. Haha, I wish :)
I think I should leave things alone for a while.
Like Sylvia Plath said:
Is there no way out of my mind?
(Yes, I posted this quote a few weeks back. It’s still very true in my life.)
Fuck this.
“All we have in common is death.”
Another week
Routine.
Going to talk to my mentor tomorrow about switching to sociology. Let’s hope he understands.
Sometimes I’m really scared I’m not a part of anything.
I really, really, really hope I am.
Yesterday I went to a funeral
It was emotional, which is normal.
A former classmate’s dad died a week ago. Me and some of my classmates from last year went to the funeral to pay our supports. I cried. Not because of the dad, because I didn’t knew him at all. But because of the son, who not only lost his dad but saw him suffer. I think that must be one of the hardest things. No one deserves to go through anything...
Theater
There are times you are just playing a roll. I noticed. I think you have a compilation of people and characteristics in your head, and you made a person out of it.
You call that person “me”, but really, she isn’t. She’s just everything you like about other people.
And I somewhat feel bad for you, because I know you can be yourself. Maybe you think the other person is a...
